My calendar is starting to fill in a way that it hasn’t since it emptied all at once, and suddenly. Rehearsal. Gig. Concert. Dress rehearsal. Show. Dinner. Meeting. Words that were forbidden from my planner for so many months. It seems strange that it feels so full and so busy, and yet, it’s definitely still less than before. It is exciting to be doing things. But I’m also guarded. I have enjoyed doing less. I don’t want to get back to the over-fullness that was the normal. I want to protect the time and space I’ve learned is so necessary.

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